Renee Hanson
My Dearest Russell,
I miss you so much my sweet handsome husband. Without you in my life and here in our home there is a huge void. I never knew I could love you so much and so deeply. I have a big reservoir of sadness without you in my life. I'm working through my feelings of mourning and grief with others who have also lost the loves of their lives. Grief Share has helped me to be able to breathe again. My mind is starting to clear of the fog I have been in this year since we have been apart. I feel God has had me wrapped in a cocoon so that nothing could get to me. He knew I had so much to cope with just to be able to get out of bed each day to go to work was a challenge.
Now I understand why we lived our days together so full of fun and excitement. It seemed as though we lived our life together so quickly. We made every minute count and I'm so glad we did. God knew from that day I met you in the park that we only had a short time together. He gave me you to walk through this cancer journey with you so you would not be alone. He also gave me you so I would have true unconditional love. You were the best friend and husband I could ever have imagined.
Thank you for being my husband. For loving me with all your heart and for teaching me about true love. My life is complete. I will be so glad when I can see you again. I know God has prepared a place in Heaven where we will both be together again some day. In the meantime, I want my life to count for something, to be used for God's Glory. I want Him to use my voice to help other people. I ask you God to lead me, guide me and direct my path. Show me Your Will for my life. Your Loving Wife. Choosing Joy!
Sunday May 21, 2017 at 5:19 pm
